That's how I feel about this week. :D I have to clean (and clean some more and then, beyond that, clean). I'm having a dinner party tomorrow night (& looking forward to it), and we're hoping to put the house on the market by next week. And lots of other things, too, but the main thing this week is meeting with the head of the English Department at Wright State.
Oh my word, but I am anxious about that! Going back to college--what am I thinking?! Can I even manage that with everything else going on in my life? I have a hundred fears going through my mind. Will we be able to afford it? Is this the right time? What if it's the wrong time? What if I can't do it? Will they accept my credits? (I'll find that out on Thursday.) Is this the right major?
Ahhh, that's a biggie right there. I've spent a lot of life not knowing what I really want to do. There are so many things I enjoy and am relatively good at, so it's been hard to focus in on one thing. And then there's the "playing it safe" and "being practical" aspect to my choices. So far, I've always played it safe.
When I look at getting back into the medical lab field or becoming a technical writer, being a lab tech is the much more secure position. But the more I thought about pursuing my options in that field the more my heart protested. Maybe this is a midlife crisis? I'm just tired of doing what I ought to do and would like to, instead, follow a dream. In any case, I'm pursuing the technical writing thing till I hit a brick wall, figuring God will direct me on the right path. (I'm hoping He doesn't let me walk into the brick wall face first, but you never know with God. ;) )
A wise online friend gave me a quote, which I've now turned into a little poster in Photoshop. It's hanging on my wall by my desk.
So, anyway, that's a bit of what's going on in my life. I'm terrified but excited. And I've got my big girl panties on...
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I'm going back to school too!
Good luck to you! Do you know what you want to do?
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