Decision Made

Ahhhhh, the relief of making a decision almost eclipses whatever feelings I'd be experiencing with the specific decision itself! But, in any case, right now I feel like a ton of bricks has been taken off my back.

After finally having a chance to talk to Craig (who has been at work for the last two weeks or so), the choice seemed pretty clear. I can't endure another year of misery and insane stress.  It's not been good for me, for the girls, or for him, though he is so supportive he would not say it until I pressed him on it.  The bald truth is that I've been desperately unhappy for the last year.

So I will probably take a class or two each summer and finish things out over the long haul. I do have other options to get to where I want to go, so I may pursue those instead. We will see, but I'm not worried about it.

As always, my family is the most important thing to me, and my true joy comes from focusing on them. God continues to bless me with wise friends who know my heart and can speak into that to reassure me that "changing course doesn't mean that what [I've] done is a waste, even if it doesn't come to the completion [I've} envisioned when [I] started" (Luker, 2011, para. 2). And also, "You can always get back to doing school, you can't get these precious days back with your girls still at home" (Hansford, 2011, para. 3). (<--That was a little APA humor there, in case you missed it. ;) I have to stay in practice for when I go back. I'd quote you, too, Loa, but, since we talked on the phone, I can't cut and paste our conversation!)

So, anyway, today I am so relieved, and I am looking forward to my life again!